sweep me off my feet

grey's anatomy brings out the weepy girl in me.

i never particularly wanted the sparks and fireworks. the grandeur, the extravagance. all i wanted were simple things. the simplest of actions. the simplest of words. but yet in all that had passed. everyone only wanted the grand big bangs. never sweet gentle whispers. and sometimes too many ppl take that for granted. cos nothing can compare, no million dollar necklace or bag, could compare with a few words, or just a touch.

and for all the faults i have now. rash, repetitive, opinionated, loud, too easily emotionally-attached, emotional, judgemental and all that. i really like the person i am now. it was a long way coming. but now that i'm here. i'm happy with the person i am. and i won't make any apologies for who i am.

i like the dark and silence of the night

: chasing cars :: snow patrol :

working life is rather monotonous -.- and i can go an entire day without talking to anyone. which actually suits me quite well cos i can just not talk the whole day. but what's most important is that after work, you spend time with the people you want to, talk about the most nonsensical shit. and do mad things. grins.

speaking of mad things. life just seems a lot more brighter and spontaneous with ming around (: hahaha, i got dragged, in 3 inch heels to the bus stop yesterday night, to chase a bus that hadn't even arrived yet -.- then took 36 to ming's hse, and took cab home from there. you should have seen my face yesterday. and ming couldn't stifle her glee, giggling and laughing e whole way home. hahaha, but it was always the trips home with ming that made my days. so simple, and yet so wonderful.

i miss cambridge. sometimes, nothing can compare to that wild abandonment, letting loose, and running free. and everything else.

i know that its a wonderful world

but i can't feel it right now

i thought i was doing well

but i just want to cry now

well i know its a wonderful world

from the sky down to the sea

but i can only see it

when you're here

here with me

: wonderful world :: james morrison :

hongkong!

hongkong was everything i hoped it be, and alot more. haha. it felt good to be free for awhile. to escape the mundane life of singapore. to eat good food. shop as well. grins. it was grea to start each day with good food and shopping. but feet very very very painful. grumbles. still swollen. i'll post e pics up soon la. once i have time and stop getting exploited.

i must say i have very cool hongkong cousins (y) one's incredibly smart, and e other's super funny and good at bargaining. plus the cutest little cousin around. and she's just like me :D we both like shiny pretty things. teeheeheehee.

what rachel said. spending 24/7 with ur friends makes u realise the sharp contrasts. but we came back no worse for wear. still smiling, still laughing. and i'm happy and thankful for all that.

I'VE MISSED MY MINGKIE-POO!!!!!!!!!!!!

much love to steffish, rach & cass (:

goodbye singapore! hello hongkong.

i'll miss you mingkie poo & mel ): take care. love you love you love you.

see you all on sat!

: 9 crimes :: damien rice :

fly

This years love had better last
Heaven knows it's high time
And I've been waiting on my own too long
But when you hold me like you do
It feels so right
I start to forget
How my heart gets torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Feeling like you can't go on

Turning circles when time again
It cuts like a knife oh yeah
If you love me got to know for sure
Cos it takes something more this time
Than sweet sweet lies
Before I open up my arms and fall
Losing all control
Every dream inside my soul
And when you kiss me
On that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singing ain't this life so sweet

This years love had better last
This years love had better last

So whose to worry
If our hearts get torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Don't you know this life goes on
And won't you kiss me
On that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singing ain't this life so sweet

This years love had better last
This years love had better last
This years love had better last
This years love had better last

this song is just lovely. makes me feel.. wistful i suppose.

i always find the beginning and end parts of e year the hardest to get through.

hah. i find it really interesting the way you act. confusing. but interesting. you're more unpredictable than the weather. and i've kinda learned to take it in my stride. everything is a bonus yeah.

ooh charity concert giving me major headaches. i really hope it happens. it better -.-

fly away. far far away.

: this year's love :: david gray :

hongkong

escapism is the word.

i've been waiting for this trip for ages. to find that feeling of absolute freedom like in london again. the only sad thing is that ming can't come ): i'll organise another june trip! sorry darling ): i love you. you must go in june ok.

working's tiring. but the time seems to fly past. although i suppose its good that i don't find it terribly boring, but it scares me that time just passes me by like that. very soon, before i know it it'll be time to say our goodbyes.

hongkong here i come!

: airplane :: imogen heap :

trying

i keep repeating to myself in my head.

what's meant to be, will be.

i keep telling myself not to forget my promise. and its just a matter of time.

i'm honestly very happy for interdependent & bea.

but no matter how i smile it off. laugh it off. try and find joy in other things. at the end of the day i still revert back to reality. that i've been stopped in the middle of my path. the path that i've been working so hard to. there's no more steps to take. this is it. and sometimes i just can't swallow it.

so i go back to telling myself. there's a reason for everything. what's meant to be, will be. and maybe things will turn out better this way. i won't have to live under the shadows of the two memories i had the most problem letting go. to start life again on a clean slate. to live for me, and not for what could have been.

i'm really trying. so just give me time.

all i ask now is a hug and someone to hold my hand

love you ming

love you mel

i have eaten at least 30 panadols in the past 4 days. which isn't alot actually. just 8 a day -.- i'm a painkiller addict. smirks. so sue me. I WANT MELISSA TO COME BACK ): didn't get my angie time e other day. so i'm gloomy. i need happy people that i love but annoy me sometimes to get me happy. hahahaha. bouncy bouncy. i think its e painkillers talking. but yeah.

okkkkkk. i shall talk about japan now. grins. i actually said at first that i loved japan, but its not a place i'll miss terribly? but u know what. i take back my words. i miss japan ): so much so much. the cold air, the autumn leaves, the snow, the DAMN POLITE PEOPLE (unlike bloody singaporeans), the bowing (smirks, egomaniac. thank you), SHOPPING, super super super super good food. meeheeeheee. the beef rocks. hands down. i love japan cows (y) they're e best. they have like the freshest milk, yoghurt and marbled fatty beef. swoons. i never drink milk. but i had a glass everyday in hokkaido. yummyyyy. hahahaha. krist and i were smsing each other e whole time. but the poor darling's allergic to seafood -.- so she didn't get to enjoy the yummy fresh seafood. it is so rachel's kinda heaven. good food, good desserts, good tea. HEAVEN. and very very cute japanese young boys. i love their uniforms damnit. the girls look so smart in the blazer and the VERY short skirts. they're short even by my standard ok -.- and non-ah-beng boys look like little emperors. meeheeehee. with the mandarin collar and all (:

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japanese confectionary is love.

anyway. we started at hokkaido. my daddy's very very anti-social -.- he said 'why should i have to be in the presence of unnecessary strangers and be carted around like sheep. NO TOURS'. so we ended up hiring our own tourguide and bus. we had this bus meant for 10 ppl for 3 of us, plus our guide. so everyone was all sprawled out everywhere. we had the cutest old busdriver. he was like round, short and pinkfaced (: and so sweet. hehehee. he kept jabbering on and on to me in japanese, grinning the whole time. and i'd just go, erhh HAI HAI HAI. super nice. grins. i like our personal tours. i get to spend as long as i want shopping. james (our tourguide) nearly fainted when he saw what we bought. we ended up with 3 boxes from hokkaido. and 1 box from tokyo. plus 3 extremely full suitcases, 2 trolley bags and a carry-on. you have no idea how my family shops. you think i'm bad, let me introduce you to my dad. since he shops like only once a yr, he kinda assumes that we survive on that one time shopping trip -.- so he buys in bulk. its quite amusing actually. and my mum can't say a thing. muahahahaha. so i just ride along (:

we started in hakodate in hokkaido. our first lunch was good stuff (: i had my hot stone bowl with beef. yummyyyy. i can still rmb. i took pictures of all our meals (y) saw the night view from this cable car tower in hakodate. which is the 3rd best night scenery in the world. it was beautiful. i didn't want to leave. i stood there for the longest time. the crisp night air. the wind. it felt wonderful. like i was finally free. grins. i miss that feeling. spent the night in a traditional jap hotel. with the traditional japanese rooms and everything. actually we spent almost everynight in hokkaido in a hotel like that. hahaha, we slept on tatami mats which aren't that bad. quite comfy. but the pillows are horrendous -.- they're made of husks. they hurt your feet when u step on em la! everynight we had to punch a hole in e middle of our pillows so that our heads could fit in. super funny. and of course we had hot springs/onsens (: meeheehee. very very nice. esp the outdoor ones. there was just one drawback -.- you gotta be totally naked. and there's like a communal bath. smirks. EVERYONE bathed down there. but u have private bathrooms in ur rooms la. my mummy and i were so scared, that we bathed in our room first. then went downstairs. then close our eyes and run blindly into the hot spring. hahahaha. i've never seen so many naked women in my life 0_o it was rather terrifying at first. but got used to it eventually.


daddy, mummy and i (; the view of hakodate.


don't you love the panda (: its so cuteeeee. and that's my mummy and i in the robes the hotel provided. they provide pjs and robes in every hotel (y)

went to the fish market the next day. nvr seen so many crabs in my life. huge fat ass crabs. hahaha. it was madness. oooh, one thing i like abt e japs. they're really generous. its like u can try ANYTHING. they even like offer you steamed crabs as u walk along. we were full from testing la. then went to a bear sanctuary, where all these bears were rescued after being injured by traps. the bears are so cute (: they can like stand up and hold their paws together to get you to throw an apple to em. they even beckon at you to catch ur attention. very very cute (y) went to lake toya. there was this beautiful park by the lake. look down. hahaha. the metal sculptures were beautiful (: i think that was prob my favourite place in hokkaido. it just felt so peaceful, serene. and we went there at sunset. and it was just mystical.


fish market (: and the park at lake toya. isn't it beautiful



bear sanctuary (: my family at a volcano we passed by.


ikura (: salmon eggs. yummyyyy. so fresh. we bought a tub and just ate em like that. heheee.

we went on a snowmobile ride. each of us had a snow-mobile. and after we paid and all ready to go then did we realise we're supposed to all have a driver's license -.- but we kept quiet. smirks, so i got to drive one! hehehehee. but i was so stressed la. it was like a winding route, up a freaking hill. so if i go off the route. erh, goodbye world. and the snowmobile is super heavy to steer -.- i had aching arms for so long. but it was fun. teeheeeheee. tiring, scary, stressful. but oh so fun. i'm proud of myself that i'm still alive (y)




then had lunch (; the crab i'm holding was our lunch. meeheeheee. and the abalone too. oooh, grilled abalone is mucho love :D




hell's valley. for dear ppl like rachel, the words on e tablet is gu di yu. which is CHINESE. grins. supposed to be read di yu gu la. weird jap writings. shrugs.




that night we stayed at this super beautiful japanese inn in otaru. where i got the choice of tatami mats or a bed. my mummy and i took e beds, and my dad took e mat. hahaha. i love beds (: that's my daddy and i all red from the sake. in our pjs at dinner -.- u wear their pjs and robes to eat dinner la. don't we look like convicts? and that's e view from our room. that was a stream flowing outside (; so lovely.

i love otaru (: its this gorgeous little quaint town. they had so many chocolate shops and confectionaries :D meeheeeheee. and it was snowing too. snowed almost everyday in hokkaido. the famous music box shop/museum's in otaru. daddy bought mummy and i a music box each. heheee. mine is the 'waltz of flowers' which brings back ballet day memories. bought nonsense ornaments which are super super cute (: then went to the ishiya chocolate factory -.- ended up leaving with a box full of confectionary. grins. then ended up in sapporo, where we went to see the lights display. i love fairy lights!


the music box museum


ishiya chocolate factory


lights display in sapporo (:

ok. i shall continue with yokohama and tokyo another day. need to leave for angie's house alr. sushi! hahaha. angie time (: i took 1024 pics. hence e looonggggg time needed to blog. grins. ciao!